Regarding the Feminine...

Friday, March 14, 2014

This morning I had one of those insights that probably fits in the category of “Master of the Obvious” but for some reason I received it as a shock to my consciousness.  One of those “aha’s” that the more you think about, the greater the intensity of “snarkiness”.

I was contemplating the emergence of love…the type of love that is pure…whole…without intent…and I began to realize how I (perhaps we) have kept this love that resides in the core of our being, hidden…protected it might seem.  We’ve built a wall around it.  It feels so vulnerable…  Then I realized that that which I was attempting to protect was the essence of the feminine…the great nurturing force of unconditional love...As I felt more into this it began to dawn on me that perhaps I wasn’t really trying to protect the great feminine  -after all it is eternal- perhaps I was really trying to protect myself! 

I’m sure this seemingly innate need to protect this great love and vulnerability originated in some pretty horrific experiences…There are memories – some very old and others not so old – of suffering due to the expression of anything that might be considered remotely feminine.  The human body (mentally, emotionally and physically) has suffered great pain in the expression of this feminine energy.  So walling it off so to speak, isn’t without cause. 

In this moment I am being flooded with memories of all the times I have given a workshop in a public institution and someone or a group of someone’s has complained or stated that they could do without the “touchy-feely” stuff.  Some would roll their eyes or cross their arms over their chest in silent but poignant protest while others had no problem voicing their disdain.  Now, I realize that this really was an unconscious act of desecration regarding the divinely feminine - something that has been going on for centuries and something we have just come to accept.  As one of those “touchy-feely” types, I have firsthand experience with the negativity and judgment associated with any expression of feeling or vulnerability in meetings or settings.  One learns to put up with it.  Yet realizing these acts for what they really are, now brings greater understanding and perseverance regarding that which is meant to emerge after centuries of “hiding”.       

Now, I realize that building a wall around this beautiful, loving, nurturing and expressive energy was about me.  It doesn’t need protection…and quite frankly neither do I.  The world desperately needs the feminine.  And now that I know what I know, I can stop any patrols…tear down any walls…and consciously allow this divine energy to once again emerge, untethered.

Much love,

Karrie

What if there's nothing wrong?

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

On more than one occasion as of late, the question “What if there’s nothing wrong?” has dropped into my awareness.  Whether applied to the world at large…our communities…our families…ourselves….our current circumstances and situations…What if there’s nothing wrong?

What if everything is in divine order?  What if the chaos, confusion, destruction and falling apart is as it should be?  What if beneath the negativity, shadows and darkness now coming to light…rising to the surface…is the budding of the new…the construction of that which is more in alignment with the Cosmic flow?

What if that which we resist so strongly because it defies our traditions and past understanding, is really the beginnings of tomorrow?  What if those characters, plots and plans which have ruled the world in darkness are now being truly seen so we can make a conscious choice for something different? 

What if we knew there is nothing wrong with the processes which are transforming our world today?  What if we trusted that something greater had this?  What if we knew that we could trust our own connection to the guidance within us, our connection to something greater?  What if we had faith that each of us plays a part in the transformation of our world reality whether in the seeming shadow or in the light?

What if we knew there was absolutely nothing wrong with us…and that the real struggle was whether to trust or not to trust?  What if we understood that everything we are, is perfect?  What if we knew that it is our resistance to who we really are…that which shall become…that causes suffering and heartache? 

What if there is nothing wrong? 

Much love,

Karrie

 

The Unwitting Co-Conspirator

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Whether through the television, internet, radio or propaganda from an organization, one can easily be swept away by the fact that the world is “going to hell in a hand basket”.  Stories surfacing about super soldiers, monopolizing economic dictators, massive but silent troop movement, the threat of nuclear warheads, radioactive material, pulsating bombs, chemicals in our water, attacks by rogue nations or other crises which appear lesser in magnitude in comparison, can wreak havoc in our subconscious, waking conscious as well as the collective conscious.  Now, more than ever, it is important to remain vigilant and tethered to a sense of higher truth and guidance from our own Higher Consciousness.

As a trained union organizer and student of human behavior, I am well acquainted with the use of fear as a mobilizer.  It’s one thing to be aware of movements…presences…activities…and outrageous behaviors…then there’s the playing out in our imaginations of possible outcomes and the use of fear to convince, persuade and mobilize others to a similar opinion – not realizing that as we join in fear…we become co-conspirators in creating that which we are afraid of in the first place.

Because of the “enlightened” and loving energy of the times we’re in, anything that has been in the shadows is going to be revealed.  Illusion cannot stand in the presence of love and truth – and it is love and truth that we carry at the core of our beings.  For each of us to be that love…be that truth… is not only the greatest “defense” but the greatest creator. 

I believe it’s a good idea to be aware of what’s going on around us…while consciously tethering ourselves to love and truth…choosing to give our attention to desired outcomes and experiences. The only place we will find truth as well as trustworthy direction in any moment is inside us…where our connection to Consciousness remains untainted by the illusions of the world.

Here’s to an exciting 2014!  May the force be with you!

Much love,

Karrie 

     

In Gratitude for the Deepening of Freedom...

Friday, December 27, 2013

I have always believed marriage was something between hearts…a sacred agreement between souls.  I have always said I didn’t need voter permission or a piece of paper to legitimize love.  And though I still believe this to be true…I didn’t realize how important the right to marry…the freedom to marry…was to me…perhaps because I’ve never really had it. 

My partner and I have been spiritually married for almost 6 years…and yet were never able to bring that marriage into the material world – until now.  Yesterday, we grounded our relationship into the physical world in a civil ceremony at the county clerk’s office.  (There was another couple right before us who had been together for 38 years!)  I can’t put to words the emotions that bubbled up from somewhere deep inside me as we completed the application for a license…emotions accompanied by the kind of tears that only come from the core of who we are.  The only word that comes to mind is gratitude.  I felt no anger or resentment – or any feelings of a victim or “wounded” mentality – only gratitude.  

I am thankful for those who march…file suit…share their lives authentically…stand in the truth of who they are…call on the courage to share with their families…their friends…their churches…and within their cultures…I am thankful for the United States of America and its systems through which we are always pushing the envelope in the evolution and quest to uphold and expand our consciousness and freedom.  I am thankful for that which I did not have…because with its granting, comes a deeper appreciation for freedom…as well as an expanding acceptance and understanding of the right for each and every one of us to be who we are – regardless whether anyone agrees with us or not.

I strongly support the right of those whose opinions are in direct opposition to mine.  I support the right to disagree…as well as the freedom to voice our beliefs and worship how we feel called.  I support freedom.

It occurs to me that when we begin to support freedom…to really support freedom…we won’t have so many battles…or wars…so much hatred…and anger.  We won’t fear others who differ from us…and they won’t fear us.  We will recognize the beauty of each individual for who they are…and the expression of the one Consciousness they are bringing to life.

This morning, I give thanks…for where we’ve been…where we are…and where we’re going… Hearts are beginning to open…and love, truth and freedom are beginning to shine.

Much love,

Karrie          

In the Hands of a Master Tailor

Thursday, November 14, 2013

For quite a while I have felt discomfort in the dreamtime.  Much of it stems from my teeter-totter confusion around an occupation.  Part of me attempts to fit myself into jobs I find on the internet, applying the skills I have accumulated in my lives as a teacher, union representative and consultant.  And part of me continues to hold out for something much different…something that calls to me from that which I still cannot see but makes my heart sing in its alignment with who I am today.  I haven’t been able to put words to this discomfort with such internal clarity until this morning.

When I can consciously recognize the battle within me, I’m usually able to find some resolution.  As Albert Einstein stated, “You can’t solve a problem at the same level which it was created.”  My “problems” seem to take root within my subconscious…and now that this one has been brought into the light of my consciousness…I know there’s an opportunity for relief!

Here we go….

There is an underlying sense for me to just “be” and not attempt to force myself into a “hole” or “identity”.  A few profoundly transformative questions just popped into my mind, “Can I just be me and allow the identity to take shape around me?   Can I allow a natural fitting as if at the hands of a master tailor?  Can I just breathe as me…releasing any constrictions…allowing my own expansion…and just comfortably “be” in this world?  (lately I’ve been feeling “crunched”…like I’m trying to make myself fit in something that’s much too small…the bed feels too small…my car feels too small…rooms feel too small…my world feels too small…)  Can I allow my natural size to “be”?  Can I allow myself to stretch, unfold, breathe deeply and allow the Universal Tailor to do its magic?  Can I allow this tailor to provide the perfect “fitting” according to my own authentic nature?”  Wow…..

In this moment, allowing this tailor to do its divine magic brings peace of mind, joy to my heart and excitement for that which is to be.  Can I just be me and allow the identity to take shape around me?   Yes, I can.  Wow….

Much love,

Karrie

An Arm-Saving Insight

Saturday, November 9, 2013

This morning as I was walking one of my babies, Devi, I was gifted an insight regarding trust.  Devi and I were walking through the neighborhood greenbelt (an area which many homes look over from the fenced back yards) and as we approached part of the walkway adjacent to the yard of one of her favorite doggie adversaries I found myself securing her retractable leash at about 2 feet.  As I did this, I heard myself say, “I don’t trust you”, meaning I didn’t trust the fact that she wouldn’t suddenly fly up the small hill toward her adversary and rip off my arm in the process!  However, when I heard myself say this, I felt something else…something I didn’t like.  It had to do with the fact that I didn’t trust her.  It didn’t feel right.  Within a matter of seconds, I heard myself counter with “But I do trust you to be you…which means it’s quite possible you may very well bound up the hill with my arm in tow!”  This little switch to, “But I do trust you to be you” made all the difference in the world.  I smiled and felt lighter because I could feel a more far reaching application than just the relationship between Devi and I. 

I also realized in that moment that this is how it is with the people around me as well.  I can absolutely trust them to be who they are.  I cannot trust them to be who I want them to be.  And why should they be who I want them to be?!  How selfish is that?  It is freeing to know that I can trust people…animals…Nature… insects…plants…etc…..I can trust them to be who they are.  How powerful is that?

Much love,

Karrie    

An Overdose of Nun (None)!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

I haven’t felt called to blog for a while but this morning I had an insight about myself that I felt might be beneficial to share. 

A few years ago, I was fortunate enough to take a course from Carolyn Myss regarding archetypes.  According to Carolyn we each come into this life with certain archetypal energies (examples:  mother, father, queen, king, knight, pioneer, artist, monk, librarian, detective, etc.) which we use to transcend patterns and beliefs which are outdated and ready for transformation.  Carolyn has “created” a system through which one can identify these archetypes as well as work with them in order to release the weight of that which our consciousness has outgrown and move more fully into our own powerful authentic nature.  The knowledge of archetypes has proven to be incredibly useful for me in my own journey toward authenticity.

For the past several years, I would classify my path as one of intense purification.  I have removed myself from the world in many ways and experienced the loss or release of much of the material.  I have spent much time contemplating my beliefs around a lot of things including money.  In removing myself from a world that is focused on money, I have had the amazing experience of what it feels like to be without.  The panic, anxiousness, concern, guilt, worry and fear have been intense at times yet I would not change a thing.  The experience and acknowledgement of these feelings which I have feared for so long has been freeing, expansive and transcendental in many ways.  This being said, the new me is ready for new experiences.

I have wondered for quite some time why I haven’t attracted anything materially.  I felt like I was open and ready but almost anything I “put out there” has been responded to with silence.  This can be quite disturbing.  This morning, I realized that a core archetype of mine has been a major definer of the lens through which I am viewing and creating my world.  In fact, when I identified “her” it was like an enormous cork popped and huge amounts of light were freed and shining.  The archetype was none other than the monk/nun. 

I was finally able to “see” her influence.  She is dedicated to God and all decisions and experiences in many ways have been filtered through her lens.  In her loyalty to the Divine, she denies the material.  She sees the physical as “bad” and something to overcome.  She lives in “poverty” as she believes this is in alignment with her allegiance to God.  What she has to offer is free as she lives to serve the Divine and this should be done freely.  And for her, giving is everything while receiving is not acceptable.

This was a huge recognition for me.  The lens of the “nun” is really outdated when compared with where my consciousness is in this moment.  There is a huge religious conflict that has been begging for acknowledgement in order for me to update and move forward.   I have a great respect and honoring for this archetype of mine.  I feel her…I feel her dedication…and I understand.  And at the same time, my consciousness around God has greatly expanded.  For me, God/Consciousness is joy, excitement, experience, acceptance and all-inclusive.  There is no separation between spiritual, physical, emotional, mental, etc.  I am my dreams and my physical creations.  Life is sacred....and Life is an opportunity for Consciousness to experience form.  The physical is an important part of the experience.  Sacrifice and denial of the material are no longer requisite for my soul’s experience.  Allowing myself to receive is part of the joy and experience of life.  My service to God – as an expression of God – is to experience life to its fullest; to express myself into this world; to consciously create my experience; to share the beauty of Consciousness through my unique form; to receive and experience abundance of all kinds; and enjoy the material as it too is of God.  I can be dedicated without suffering, struggle and lack.  I can enjoy my opportunity in the form of “Karrie” - the form I have chosen for this life’s opportunity and experience. 

Whew!  This is a huge recognition for me and one that I will be contemplating further.  I can already sense the impact this realization is having on the path I am now creating.

OK!  I’m off to begin my visioning of something new….  Yahoo!

Much love,