Thursday, November 7, 2013

An Overdose of Nun (None)!


Thursday, November 7, 2013
I haven’t felt called to blog for a while but this morning I had an insight about myself that I felt might be beneficial to share. 

A few years ago, I was fortunate enough to take a course from Carolyn Myss regarding archetypes.  According to Carolyn we each come into this life with certain archetypal energies (examples:  mother, father, queen, king, knight, pioneer, artist, monk, librarian, detective, etc.) which we use to transcend patterns and beliefs which are outdated and ready for transformation.  Carolyn has “created” a system through which one can identify these archetypes as well as work with them in order to release the weight of that which our consciousness has outgrown and move more fully into our own powerful authentic nature.  The knowledge of archetypes has proven to be incredibly useful for me in my own journey toward authenticity.

For the past several years, I would classify my path as one of intense purification.  I have removed myself from the world in many ways and experienced the loss or release of much of the material.  I have spent much time contemplating my beliefs around a lot of things including money.  In removing myself from a world that is focused on money, I have had the amazing experience of what it feels like to be without.  The panic, anxiousness, concern, guilt, worry and fear have been intense at times yet I would not change a thing.  The experience and acknowledgement of these feelings which I have feared for so long has been freeing, expansive and transcendental in many ways.  This being said, the new me is ready for new experiences.

I have wondered for quite some time why I haven’t attracted anything materially.  I felt like I was open and ready but almost anything I “put out there” has been responded to with silence.  This can be quite disturbing.  This morning, I realized that a core archetype of mine has been a major definer of the lens through which I am viewing and creating my world.  In fact, when I identified “her” it was like an enormous cork popped and huge amounts of light were freed and shining.  The archetype was none other than the monk/nun. 

I was finally able to “see” her influence.  She is dedicated to God and all decisions and experiences in many ways have been filtered through her lens.  In her loyalty to the Divine, she denies the material.  She sees the physical as “bad” and something to overcome.  She lives in “poverty” as she believes this is in alignment with her allegiance to God.  What she has to offer is free as she lives to serve the Divine and this should be done freely.  And for her, giving is everything while receiving is not acceptable.

This was a huge recognition for me.  The lens of the “nun” is really outdated when compared with where my consciousness is in this moment.  There is a huge religious conflict that has been begging for acknowledgement in order for me to update and move forward.   I have a great respect and honoring for this archetype of mine.  I feel her…I feel her dedication…and I understand.  And at the same time, my consciousness around God has greatly expanded.  For me, God/Consciousness is joy, excitement, experience, acceptance and all-inclusive.  There is no separation between spiritual, physical, emotional, mental, etc.  I am my dreams and my physical creations.  Life is sacred....and Life is an opportunity for Consciousness to experience form.  The physical is an important part of the experience.  Sacrifice and denial of the material are no longer requisite for my soul’s experience.  Allowing myself to receive is part of the joy and experience of life.  My service to God – as an expression of God – is to experience life to its fullest; to express myself into this world; to consciously create my experience; to share the beauty of Consciousness through my unique form; to receive and experience abundance of all kinds; and enjoy the material as it too is of God.  I can be dedicated without suffering, struggle and lack.  I can enjoy my opportunity in the form of “Karrie” - the form I have chosen for this life’s opportunity and experience. 

Whew!  This is a huge recognition for me and one that I will be contemplating further.  I can already sense the impact this realization is having on the path I am now creating.

OK!  I’m off to begin my visioning of something new….  Yahoo!

Much love,

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