Charlie Brown Rides Again!

Do you ever have times in your life when you wonder what the heck is going on?  Why isn’t anything working?  For me, I can even get to the place where I’m wondering if my time here in this world is done.  I can feel soooooo miserable emotionally and my emotions seem to have a symbiotic relationship with my mental mind as well as my physical being.  Doubt becomes enemy #1 as I grow intensely weary of following what I know to be my own Inner Guidance (IG) yet running into a brick wall just as I dare to believe and reach a near sprint!  (Lucy convincing Charlie Brown to once again trust her then pulling the football away after he’s run toward it and just as he swings his leg to kick it, comes to mind!)   Suddenly, I find myself unwilling to “believe” even one more time.  I find myself going round in circles thinking I must be doing something wrong…, not able to determine what it is and beginning to doubt my own IG.  (Very unnerving!)

For instance, I’ve felt the inner push to offer a travelling workshop and gone through all the hoops to set it up without one person showing interest.  I’ve set up a business including creating my own website (interesting…) …given some workshops…been “yo-yo’d” several times by prospective clients… followed my IG all the way…yet not ending up with what I envisioned.  In fact, I would say that part(s) of me definitely have cried out “Oh Lord, why hath thou forsaken me?”  After all, my IG pushed me in this direction…why hasn’t it worked out the way I anticipated?  Why am I not rich, famous and deliriously happy?  I must be doing something wrong…  (Torment and Punishment and Doubt!  Oh my!)     

Well…I’ve finally come to the conclusion that I’m not doing anything wrong…I’ve just attached my own meaning and desired outcomes to the directions I’ve heard and followed.  I’ve judged myself negatively based on my interpretations of the outcomes I’ve experienced.  I heard the directions and rushed ahead with my own assumptions of what that meant was coming.  (This reminds me of Devi, my dog, rushing ahead to get the ball when I haven’t thrown it yet!  Where is it?  Where is it? As she looks frantically in multiple directions before turning back to find that I’m still holding the object she seeks or I’ve thrown it in a direction other than she anticipated!  And I think she’s gullible!)

So what I’ve learned is this…S-U-R-R-E-N-D-E-R…this means stop trying to figure it out…stop attempting to dictate an outcome...stay in the moment…take each step directed without pre-conceived notions as to their meaning….allow myself to be surprised and excited by the unknown…enjoy the ride.  The soul knows the path it has chosen… “i” don’t have a clue… It knows the beliefs and pre-conceived understandings I am to release while “i” protectively (and gallantly, I might add!) attempt to hold onto my limitations!

With this knowledge, I feel a sense of peace (at least for now!) as well as the rekindling of my child-like excitement in knowing that there is a path beneath my feet….invisible to “me”…but well known by ME.  The question is, can I blindly surrender to this path, trusting continuously in that which I cannot see?  (This is where the child-like excitement is supposed to come in! Yahoo!???)  Once again, I feel inspired to give it a try….and as I confidently jog toward the football….I hear “Charlie Brown rides again!”  Woohoo! :-)

Much love,

Karrie

 

We the People

Friday, April 19, 2013

Yesterday, I “pointed and clicked” on a video on Facebook.  It was a replay of the singing of the national anthem prior to the Boston Bruins game.  It began with a soloist and within seconds became a phenomenal expression of the essence of America as the many spectators became the one voice – the voice of America.  It would be hard to believe that anyone who watches this video would not be moved to tears.

This morning as I replay this experience in my mind, I am attempting to put words to what this essence brings forth.  What moves us beyond all our differences into this incredible experience of unity?  As I listened to the one voice that had emerged in that arena, I heard the resilience, perseverance, courage and strength that is representative of the essence of America.  And in this moment of awe-inspiring unity, I could feel the power of “We the People”…a force more powerful than any governmental structure…incongruent belief system…or polarization.  We the People exemplifies E Pluribus Unum – out of many, One – and We the People are joined in heart by the love we carry for this nation and what it stands for. 

Give us your huddled masses…your sick…your tired…your poor…. Because here you have a shot…here you can be who you are….and here you can aspire to live your dreams....

As Americans, we are bonded in our hearts by the essence of this great country which exemplifies love…unity…freedom…equality...and independence – all which rise above differences while allowing those differences to exist.  The essence of America speaks to the essence of life itself…persistent, resilient, courageous, empowered and in love.

I’m in love with the essence of America….that which lies deep within us…that which the vast majority of us is in love with…that which unites us…

Much love,

Karrie     

 

The Essence of America in One Sentence

If I had to express the Essence of America in one sentence, it would be that sentence from the Declaration of Independence that stands out among the rest and glows multi-dimensionally with Truth…

“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all [Beings] are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.” 

The Essence of America goes beyond race, color, creed, sexual orientation, gender, culture and any other distinguishing characteristic of the One in the Many.  It vibrates beyond wounds and differences.  It’s something inherent within each of us – no matter our background or experiences – and something we must aspire to remember, clearing all that which blocks its purity.

The Essence of America is not equivalent to “Americans”.  Those known around the world as “Americans” are those who live as citizens in the United States of America.  The Essence of America is not just about “Americans”… We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all [Beings] are created equal and endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights…. The Essence of America is universal and springs from the highest of spiritual attributes.  It speaks to Humanity.  The Essence of America is of the One and celebrates diversity as the vehicle for an infinity of unique experiences.

In many ways, the Essence of America is like the etheric soup which everything exists within.  All is included….nothing is excluded…each is sovereign to itself….yet connected to all others…by the One….and as the One.

As we converse around this Essence….connecting evermore fully with it….all that which blocks us from unification arises.  Beliefs, wounds, experiences, etc., all come to the surface for release.  I believe this is an important part of the transformational process as we aspire to unity as this essence.

I'm in love with the essence of America!

Much love,

Karrie

 

As a Van Gogh...

Saturday, February 23, 2013

As I consciously choose to see myself and those I come into contact with as whole and complete, my world changes.  As I begin to experience a world not built on need, I have the opportunity to witness Consciousness having its experience – through a myriad of forms.  Judgment ceases as I realize to critique God seems incredibly ridiculous…silly…arrogant.  It’s like someone coming up to Van Gogh, looking at one of his paintings and saying, “Don’t you think that blue should really be brown?”  (LOL!)  I’m beginning to respect each individual artist as they create their own reality which in turn allows me the same respect with myself.  Coming from a place of whole and complete, allows me to share from within….to express that which desires to be shared…without need or to be needed.  We are all artists not only creating our world with our thoughts, “rules” and beliefs but sharing the song of our very essence.  Beautiful…

Surrendering into Freedom

Saturday, February 16, 2013

If I allow it to be true.....there is a place where I begin to create my own reality independent of the “rules” of this world.  No longer governed by time, expectations, should’s and should not’s, I see the world through the eyes of a Master Creator.  It is complete surrender to my own Higher Guidance – my tie to the true Creator – that connects me to freedom and my song. 

As I ready myself to jump with both feet, my survival archetypes which have been my earthly bodyguards, making sure of my “earthly survival”, raise some last concerns…. “Does this Higher Guidance know how to operate in this world?  Does it know the pitfalls?  Does it know how to avoid disaster, pain and suffering?  Does it know enough to keep “us” alive?”  My sense is that this Higher Guidance – my own personal guru – knows that I am eternal and isn’t attached to “survival”.  It comes from a place of “whole and complete”.  It brings the wisdom, assurance and insights of the true sovereign…the sight of that which is free from the dictates of the illusion (illusory because it’s composed of rules and structures we have made, maintained and supported – not Universal Law)…allowing me to be in this world….and not of it. 

It’s strange to feel detached from the rules which have dictated my life to this point….how I should look, feel, work, play, act, etc.  To this point, I recognize that surrender to this divine part of my existence – allowing myself to be whole and complete – has been a process of reconnection….just one more step along the path home….

Much love,

Karrie

Freeing the Holy Grail

Saturday, February 9, 2013

If I allow it to be true that I am whole and complete then the world around me falls away.  A world based in need, imbalance and deficit can no longer be my reflection.  If I allow it to be true that I am whole and complete and I see all others as whole and complete, I create and interact from a place without need.  Since the world, its systems, businesses and focus have been based in need, it now disappears and I find myself in in the wholeness of Nature….pared to my own nature…cleansed of all that which is not mine.  I am whole and complete within my own nature.  I am organic….all actions and interactions become organic as well…no plans…no worries…no doubt….no need.

If I allow it to be true that I am whole and complete, I create from my wholeness… I reflect my song…I paint from and as my song…that which I have been protecting for as long as I have been in human form….the most beautiful, delicate – yet eternal – hush inspiring, tear and smile invoking melody…it’s the song of my soul…and if I allow it to be true that I am whole and complete then I release all protections knowing my song is eternal…and I create from this song…from wholeness I create as this unique melody which has been buried and hidden for lifetimes…the Holy Grail has been found…. and freed. 

Much Love,
Karrie

Beneath the false facade...the One plays its music...

Friday, February 1, 2013

What if I saw myself and all others as musical instruments…..each uniquely designed and enlivened by the breath of God…the life force of being?  What if I could sense the richness and depth of the music created through the interaction of God-Source-Consciousness and the unique characteristics of my divinely constructed instrument?  What if I took the time to relish the music played by Consciousness through the one-of-a-kind design of others?  Wow…..

When I take the time to consciously s-l-o-w-d-o-w-n, I sense the One in the many…the breath…the life force…God…I see the amazing array of instruments….I feel the joy of Consciousness as it revels in the uniqueness of each one….and I begin to experience myself as a part of the One….seeing the opportunity of Life through the eyes of Consciousness that inhabits my instrument as well as the instrument of others.  My interactions become duets, trios and orchestras…sacred  “jam sessions” of sorts…and my need to dominate, convince or override transforms into a natural harmonizing where the discordant chords are every bit as inspiring and beautiful as the non-discordant….

In these moments of clarity, time ceases to exist and I allow the awesome nature of that of which I am a part to have its way with me….the truth overrides the illusion….and I hear and feel the divine melody performed through the instruments of the many…and I am reminded that no matter the moment…regardless of earthly circumstances…beneath the false façade….the One plays its music….always…    

Much love,

Karrie