All is Well - Always

Wednesday, November 21, 2012 – Thanksgiving Eve!

This morning, I am pondering a thought that “dropped-in”….If All is Well at all times then the feelings that are in conflict with this fact must be due to my own illusory beliefs.  As I felt into this statement, I recognized that I really do believe it’s true that All is Well at all times – AND it is also true that I seem to take on some form of amnesia when outside circumstances or opinions don’t match my own desires and beliefs!

As I allowed myself to experience the feeling of All is Well….then compared it to the feeling of experiences I don’t enjoy or cause worry….I heard laughter.  It was very, very subtle but it was there….laughter.  When I followed it inward, I found that it was a part of me – a part of me that saw the humor of the human experience.  I thought, “Who is that?”  Though the who wasn’t immediately clear, the why was.  It was obvious that this part of me was connected to the truth of the matter.  It saw the comedy of the human experience.  It was laughing at the fact that I considered the drama and experiences as real.  It wasn’t making fun, it just found it funny.  It recognizes the comedy of life…the “play”…the “stage”…the fact that life is an experience.  Through its eyes, life is like a child’s first trip to Disneyland or a House of Mystery.  It knows that All is Well – always and that these experiences are just that - experiences.     

I remember hearing this laughter before.  I was in a labyrinth and focusing on the second petal – surrender.  A question had popped into my mind related to surrender – “What’s the worst that can happen?”  I had heard the laughter then, too.  When I followed it, I found that the laughter was in regard to the idea that I would choose not to surrender all the beliefs, rules, etc. that were clearly not contributing to my happiness.  It found my angst, fear and stubbornness extremely funny.  And when I saw and felt things from Its perspective, I found it funny too.

I’m not specifically sure who this part of me really is….but I love the fact that it is tethered to Truth.  I have connected it to the very Consciousness that animates my being – my particular droplet of the One.  The One who knows Truth – that knows All is Well – always.      

When I remember this, life becomes a smile.  Nothing is out of order, therefore, I can sit back and enjoy.  I can have my experiences and not attach to any outcome as a judgment of me, the process or the event.  There’s no need to get angry or frustrated – everything is as it should be.  When I truly recognize that All is Well – always, I can see the humor in my over-reaction – and I can laugh, too.         

I sense this recognition plays a part in my journey toward realizing my own completeness.  There is nothing wrong with me – or my experiences.  The same goes for everyone else in the world.  All is well – always.  Now, this is something to be Thankful for!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Much love,

Karrie

Moving Forward!

Friday, November 16, 2012

Since the election, I have been contemplating moving forward.  For me, this particular election was an incredibly personal experience.  It was a catalyst for an even deeper understanding of who I am and the work I need to do personally in order to help us move forward collectively.  Over the past several months, I did a lot of meaningful (and sometimes unpleasant) soul searching in order to surface my own polarized beliefs.  For instance, I strongly believe in and promote collaborative processes which require respect, integrity and listening.  However, I discovered that I was refusing to give one particular party even one iota of respect or understanding.  I held them in complete contempt and was not interested in hearing what they had to say or offer.  I had to deal with a lot of unpleasant feelings – anger, frustration, betrayal and even “hate.”  My search for “relief” took me to a greater understanding of freedom as well as my own fear-based need to control.  I came face-to-face with the real battle which is within me and mirrored by the battle without.  The election of 2012 was indeed a “super storm” when it came to uprooting, uncovering and baring many an outdated, undesired and polarizing belief.  I give thanks…..and will pass on any offers to repeat it.

So….how do I move forward?  How do I support getting beyond the “right and wrong,” the opposing ideologies and the bruised or “puffed up” egos?  First, I have to take care of my own inner “polarization.”  I have to be aware of the battle within me – mainly the unconscious battle to not be me.  I have to be aware of my own automated system focused on being, acting or looking like something I’m not.  When I make the conscious choice to be Karrie and accept how Karrie feels, looks and thinks, I don’t have the angst of battle – and this is reflected in my outer experiences.  Second, focusing on what needs to be addressed and viewing it is a creative project takes away the angst or need to put on my armor.   When I am interacting with others, I can focus on listening, understanding and the possibilities rather than opposing ideologies and differences.  Buckminster Fuller once said, “You don’t fix the old reality.  You create the new reality.”  To me, this means I’m not going to get anywhere focusing on what’s wrong and who’s to blame.  Instead, I can give my attention to a creative endeavor intended to bring about new solutions and “realities.”  I can assist with this new way of collaborating by focusing on the issue creatively - rather than defending, defining or denying according to premeditated plans. I can stay open to listening and building upon ideas presented - rather than closed, demanding or blaming.

For me, this is going to take some awareness and discipline.  I will need to stay conscious of keeping the issue and possible solutions as the focus.  I will have to keep reminding myself of the process of co-creation which is synergistic, synchronistic and constructive.  This being said, I am willing and ready to release the “battle”, the “sides” and the destructive stubbornness.  I am committed to doing my part in creating a new “standard” of interaction, problem solving and co-creation.  I am dedicated to being a part of the solution.

Today is a new day comprised of an infinite amount of brand new moments….I’m excited about the possibilities….

Much love,

Karrie 

 

After the Election....

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

I’m sure I’m not the only one with Election 2012 on her mind.  In my opinion, this election is historic in the level of polarization – an evenly divided citizenry supporting 2 almost totally opposite platforms.  Emotions are running high and I have even heard people on both sides of the fence say “I will kill myself if ____ is elected” or “I’m moving to Canada if ____ is elected.”  The intensity is incredible - and perhaps unprecedented.     

This morning I find myself pondering my possible responses to the results later this evening.  I realize I have my own depth of feelings and attachment to who I would like to see “win.”  I recognize the anger I may need to deal with and have to ask myself whether or not I can be “part of the solution” no matter the winner?

When I step back and attempt to feel into the nation’s response to the results, I become acutely aware of the fact that whoever wins, 50% of the voting citizens will be angry.  With this awareness, I realize that it’s going to be tough either way.  The extreme nature of the party platforms and the deep divide within the electorate make it difficult for agreement and collaboration.  No matter the winner, it appears the battle will continue. 

A couple of months ago, I listened to a channeling of The Divine Mother during which she spoke briefly in regard to the intense polarization and the 2 major parties in general.  She referred to the idea that there was a 3^rd choice - the Heart.  At that time – and until now – I wasn’t sure what she meant.  (There wasn’t a box on the ballot for “the Heart!”) Now, I understand.  With the recognition that 50% of the people are going to be intensely upset regardless of who wins this election – and the fact that this brings more destructive battling – it becomes clear that the only choice in order to move beyond the battle is to begin doing our thinking with the Heart.   The Heart is the only way to go beyond “right and wrong.”  As long as we are stuck in “sides” and a “right” and a “wrong,” there can be no solutions.  In order to assist our nation in moving forward, each of us is going to need compassion to hear the heart of another; patience to take the time to really listen to ourselves and others; courage to speak and act; and a committed focus forward toward what we really desire to create together.  

With this recognition, I believe I can be a part of the solution.  This doesn’t mean compromising values but it does mean making greater efforts to listen and understand in order to find the creative direction essential in collaboration.  It means continuing my own deepening of understanding in regard to freedom, and it means doing my best to respond from my heart knowing together we can create anything.

So here’s to Election 2012…and my own hopes and desires for a new beginning.

Much love,

Karrie

The Root of the Battle...

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Well….I’ve had an incredible couple of months.  I’m not even sure I can put words to the experiences….but for my own benefit and integration, it seems important to make the attempt.  In August, I had a session with one of my favorite “transformational artists/facilitators” – Ray Dawn (see www.raydawn.com).  Things weren’t moving along as I had hoped and I wanted to know what the problem was.  The time with Ray Dawn revealed the fact that I hadn’t “given up the battle.”   Though I could definitely feel “angst” around politics, the educational system, religion, etc., I hadn’t put two-and-two together that the cause of the angst and external battles I was experiencing was actually within me.

I could easily see the part(s) of me that were battling the system and pushing for change.  This part of me felt the battle was necessary for transformation to take place.  However, I know (at least in my mind) that what I see and experience externally is actually the mirror of what is going on inside me – I just hadn’t brought what “I know” home yet.  So….I decided to look a little deeper….where was the real battle?

When I turned inward, I found a slightly more subtle battle going on.  This one had to do with trust.   Though I feel fairly confident that I have the courage to follow my own guidance (when I hear it!), I hadn’t given much validation to the angst I felt when that guidance had me doing things that seemed contrary to popular belief.  There was a great deal of anxiety I was ignoring.  The angst caused me to “pull my sword” and bulldoze ahead against the false façade of the general world.  “The world around me doesn’t operate the way I do, therefore, I must change it!  I must take it on!  I must engage in the battle!”  (Good God – just writing about it wears me out!)  All the while….the crux of the battle without continued unattended inside me….

As I continued to deepen the search within me, the angst of the battle flamed hotter!  The greater the angst…the more uncomfortable and unhappy I became.  The voices in my head became louder and more consistent – they had nothing nice to say.  The nasty feelings that accompanied them were unbearable.  I almost couldn’t stand it!  Finally, I heard “I give up….this is who I am…I am a 7 times Scorpio…I love to search the dark/unknown….I’m not meant to be anything other than who I am… I love the shadows…I love the mystery….that’s just the way it is….This is me….and this is the way I am meant to be.”   And with that acknowledgment came peace.  For the first time, I was seeing through the eyes of Karrie – not some past life or the eyes of how I thought I should be.  For the first time, I was me and in the now.  And…..the angst disappeared.

A few days letter, the angst returned and the voices of ugliness were screaming!  I was conscious of the fact that these voices were a part of me – I accepted that - BUT I didn’t like what they had to say AND I most certainly didn’t like the way I felt!  In that moment it became apparent that my reaction had always been to suppress them – shove them down as far as possible so no one can see them – especially me!  However, I couldn’t ignore them anymore – so now what?! 

I decided to go for a walk.  On that walk, I asked for assistance in dealing with these shadowy characters and feelings.  Within a few minutes, I felt this cloud energetically separate from me – and it was u-g-l-y!  It was all my shadows in one big horrendous shadow-cloud!  The cloud took form in the shape of an extremely ugly troll-like figure – hunched, hairless, pointed ears, long sharp nails and extremely nasty feeling!  It was so horrible I couldn’t even bring myself to look at it!  I noticed that it felt really good to not have it within me – but I knew I had to do something.  I finally decided I had to look at it.  I took a calming breath and looked it right in the eyes…and then I put my hand on the side of its face and said “I’m so sorry…Please forgive me….I love you….thank you.”  Immediately, the figure began to dissipate…so I said these words twice more.  The troll completely disintegrated leaving a little girl which quickly reintegrated back into me….

I haven’t felt that angst since.  When I do feel a little something, I do the same thing – I’m so sorry….Please forgive me…I love you…thank you – and it disappears. 

I believe this was the crux of the real battle…the battle within me was with me.  The real battle was me trying not to be me.  I was battling my-Self because I thought I was supposed to be different than who I am – and that’s a battle I will never win.

I sense the shadows I have attempted to suppress for most of my life probably originated from me abandoning and denying me in order to fit into the ways of the false-façade world.  This forced a battle to ensue in order to keep those shadows suppressed and to keep me from being the real me – the me I’m meant to be….

In this moment, I am at peace – content to be Karrie….happy to be me.   

Much love,

Karrie

Out of Polarization....A Kindred Collective

October 8, 2012

This morning, I have been contemplating “polarization” again.  A few posts ago, I wrote about an “aha” I received regarding this “energy of separation.”  I realized that polarization was necessary for “transformation” – and critical for creating something new.  [Before I continue….I want to share a little background information about my own process.  A little over a week ago, I energetically put out the call for my own “kindred collective.”  I recognized I really desired to connect with those of “like-mindedness” or “like-energy.”  Within a few days, I received an e-mail connecting “me” to ME.  It was amazing.  Everything I read was exactly what I have experienced, written about in my book, sensed and desired.  It is a reality I know.  It was like someone was channeling “me” – when perhaps “I” have been channeling “them.” (Or both!)  I believe I found my kindred collective – and that brings great relief and something to focus upon.]  This takes me back to the political parties and the obvious polarization that exists between them. 

As an example (overly simplified), the 2 parties in many ways represent 2 big umbrellas.  These umbrellas appear to hold incredibly opposing energies…AND under each of those umbrellas exist less intense (for the moment) – but nevertheless polarized – energies.  The polarized energy serves transformation/creation by separating out the energies into what it is people “resonate with” (it’s also a clue to where our fears may lie).  The intensity almost forces us to “separate” – and how we “separate” helps us to find our “kindred spirits” in many ways.  The process continues driven by “events” (not just political) that further clarify what “resonates” even more.  As far as I’m concerned, the really cool part is that in the “end” everyone gets their “way” and their “reality.”  We all move toward the energy that “resonates” and separate from that which does not.  Whatever the reality we’re creating, it isn’t something we’ve “earned” or “fought for,” it’s something that’s already in us and driven by that which resonates with us.  There’s no getting in the wrong elevator or missing the exit, we just follow that which resonates.  For me, this is “being the change I seek in the world” and therefore, creating the world I truly desire.  The more I listen to my own inner guidance (what resonates), the less struggle and suffering I feel.

Finding and following what resonates with me gives me further confidence to “sing my song.”  In singing my song, I help to create the reality I truly desire.

In pursuit of Happiness… J

Much love,

Karrie

    

Out Beyond the Patriarchy...

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Well, I’m back to pondering “politics” again….but not from the perspective of right and wrong or opposing/rival teams.  For the past few weeks, I have done my best to remove myself from newspapers, television or internet commentaries regarding politics and the upcoming election.  Over this last week, our entire household has been “politics-free” – allowing a reprieve from angst, polarization, frustration and anger.  I believe this “time-out” has given me the opportunity to feel into the much larger picture of what is going on in America as well as the rest of the world.

Here’s what I believe to be true as I look from where I currently am toward the year 2016 (wow…2016, isn’t that amazing?) ….  I sense the continued - and perhaps accelerated - collapse of out-dated systems.  The umbrella term/phrase I would use to cover the vast majority of these systems would be “of the patriarchy.”  I sense we are talking about big systems (as well as our own internal equivalent) – financial, economic, religious, political and governmental to name a few.  These are systems we have out-grown in their present form.  In general, these systems are missing the influence of the “Divine Feminine” and therefore have become “out-of-balance” in a time meant to bring us more into balance.  The new systems that will be co-created will include the feminine and masculine energies working in tandem and harmony. 

The collapse of the old systems is only a matter of when and not a matter of if.  As to whether or not this will happen, it matters not who is in the White House.  These things have to happen and will.  This is a time of great opportunity and excitement for those who can ride the changes upon us and take advantage of the creative energies available.  It is a time when working together will be necessary if we are to stay atop the wave of transformation.  For those who don’t adapt well to change or cannot release the reigns of power, the patriarchy and the out-grown, the experience may feel more challenging than opportunistic. 

So….what can I/we do?  I sense it is important for those who are conscious of the “goings-on” to remain focused and loyal to the energy of Rumi’s Field – the field beyond all right doing and wrong doing.  It is in this field that co-creativity flourishes and the impossible becomes the possible.  I also feel it will be helpful to us as well as the whole to continue flushing our own out-dated beliefs and perspectives as they make themselves known AND relish any “resonating” creative endeavors that express and align with the beauty, grace and awesome nature of who we really are.

These are exciting times…and in many ways the times I/we have been waiting for! 

Much love,

Karrie   

Idling at the Stoplight...

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Has anyone else run into a lot of “brick walls” over the last few months?  For quite awhile, the vision representing where I am has been that of a red stoplight.  I have been idling at a stoplight which is red in the direction I’m headed.  Every time I checked-in, I was still sitting at the light - which had not changed.  A few days ago, I suddenly realized I still had a “right turn” available!  I decided to “take it” and have been on the move ever since.

Of course, this was entirely metaphorical.  However, I believe I was able to finally interpret it.  The red stoplight and my idleness were representative of the fact that things no longer work the same way.  The way I’ve always done things is no longer available.  The Law of Cause and Effect is still “ruling” but what has shifted is the “initiator” which sets things in motion – in other words, the “cause.”  Where working hard, pushing forward, persevering, “forcing” or “demanding” used to bring results, these modes of operation no longer seem to get things moving.  In 5D energetics, the igniter (cause) seems to have become “resonance.”  (This seems to bring a sense of relief.)

Through my own (continuing) experimentation, it appears that if something doesn’t “resonate” with the essence/being/soul of which I am….the energy for it to manifest isn’t there.  I can’t “man-handle” it and expect it to work.  What used to be the way in 3D, doesn’t seem to be the way now.  If it doesn’t “resonate”, it isn’t going to “congregate” into form.  I’ve also noticed that you can’t make something “resonate.”  It either does or it doesn’t.  If it doesn’t, don’t bother wasting your time or your concerns.  Move on.

Before I came to this realization, I recognized a few things…1) nothing was moving for me, 2) I felt like I was mirroring the collapse of the 3D systems around me (and I was), and 3) I realized I was still attempting to do things in a 3D manner.  Through my own contemplation as well as some on-line searching regarding “manifestation in the 5D”, I was led to an understanding of what I needed to change in order to “get moving” in the new energetics.  I sense that learning how to operate in 5D is the “bridge” to escaping - or at least relieving - some of the harshness of the 3D collapse.  The rules have shifted and I have to align or experience the consequences.

So…some things are coming to mind….first, if I don’t like my experience then I need to determine what “resonates” and take a step.  I don’t need to struggle, wrestle or work harder.  In fact, if I try these out-dated techniques, nothing seems to happen or move - except an elevation of frustration and anger.  I can’t “fake-out” the Universe.  I have to connect with that which truthfully “resonates” with me.  Second, I need to keep my eyes focused and my senses alerted toward that which is resonating.  Looking elsewhere and becoming distracted by the “collapse-in-process” around me will only nudge me off course.

I am so excited (at least part of the time J ) to be living in such amazing times.  The fact that we have moved into a new energetic that supports the emergence of who we truly are – and what our being-ness has to offer – is incredibly awesome and inspiring.  I am looking forward to each step of the way as a new reality unfolds before me.

Much love,

Karrie